20070325

[Rahet/阿丑] 丑忧优愁

阿良


迁来这儿后,
阿优都没提起过你的事;即使曾有件小事是值得宣扬的。应该没什么不妥,我知道你们又会说我杞人忧天。可我忧的不是崩塌的天地,是的默契。

(阿优是
的。)

密室的门,都差不多全都为你打开了。阿优锁上的门,我
亲自开给你了;你还看不见?就当是我看得见你的钥匙吧。我自己也回想不起那个时候了。

(阿
当然是的。)

阿良,你
喜欢阿优,是因为我的温驯吗?阿优的心,像朔料一样,有时候能拗能折,有时候一折就断。我,有没有让你觉得比较容易应付?阿优一直会想很多事,会为未来的事做准备,只是现在想的总是出乎意料地被扰乱了;辛苦建立起来的秩序被扰乱了。

一直无法安定下来,安稳的生活是什么?沉闷?没变化?不对,
安稳是自己能够掌握的事。迁居后,我从来不曾安稳过,况且,我从来也不曾把一件事做妥当过,我是知道的,阿优多次对我说过。

愁。

阿良,你应该懂吧,应该。
盼早日复函。


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二〇〇七年三月二十五日

20070322

[Deah/阿优] Introduction to Self-Discovery (SeDi)

Something made me happy today.
(I believed that caffeine had a certain effect on this too.)

Problem 1:

Things go really wrong when you mess with your Windows system files, and having worms and viruses in your system. What to do?

Solution 1:

1. Identify the errors and the corrupted files.
2. Clean the viruses or broken files, get the appropriate system files (compatible with the OS you're using) back.
3. If it still doesn't work, try formatting your computer/hard disk drives.
4. Then get a good anti-virus software; do not carelessly open any unknown applications, and back-up your files before modifying or replacing it.

Problem 2:

I'm corrupted.

Solution 2:

1. I tried to look for the broken files, and the cause of having it corrupted.
2. I tried many ways to clean it, but it didn't really work out.
3. I couldn't just shut myself off and reformat myself, I have nowhere to move my data (I've got only one hard disk drive, no partitions).
4. Lastly, I figured out something. I think I know my own operating system better already.
5. I need an on-going project to keep everything running smoothly, and in my way.

6. I named this project Self-Discovery Project, SeDi in short.

20070309

[Deah/阿优] 警告

阿丑近来太放肆
我默不作声
就爬到我头上来了

想让我一次又一次地
出丑,有不少人看见的
阿优,其实有时侯是
阿丑放肆

管他什么误会
我有一
堆堆的拥护着
认识阿优为阿优的人

认识阿丑假扮的假阿优
低等的阿丑,我想
就只有
低等的人才会误认
就不管了,不需为无谓的
解释

你凭什么神气自大
再一次你就别想活着。
阿优我可不是
随便给人
踩头的。

20070303

[Deah/阿优] Winter

(Inspired by the song Winter, by Tori Amos)

I can make ice out of my mouth in this winter.
But I really wish I could breathe out all the ice in my heart out in this winter.

I have never watched the snow falling and have never sung in the winter.
I don't know how winter look like.
But I think I know how it feels.

The wind gets stronger
My legs get weaker.
I look back, I couldn't find any footprints.
Not even my previous traits.
No any proper paths behind and in front of me.

I have the urge to take the road not taken
Instead of blindly walking forward
But it is so cold
I'm trembling.

It feels like forever.

When will the winter melt?
Father, I'm very lost.
When will the winter melt?