[Deah/阿优] Self-Discovery (SeDi) Final Report

My Original September.

Been feeling relieved gradually, but not as much of a surprise. Certain things still lags around. Hmm. But it doesn't harm that much.

1. Damage reduction and path-smoothing process. - 70%
   
2. Development and advancement. - 60%
   
3. Fresh and peaceful. - 90%
   
4. Joy and God. - 90%
   
5. Orderly. - 30%
   
6. Fire-lilied. - 50%

Been acting a lot milder and has been easily influenced.
Been feeling busy and empty. Been keeping quiet to myself but it doesn't help anymore.
Am not comfortable with this situation. Seriously.

Some discovery?

Yes.
I have been losing my identity. Little by little.
The causes? Various and drastic happenings before and after.

I finally admit my sickness.
No blaming, nor looking back.
I finally admitted it.

If only I were myself again.
I hope you know the me, my love.

I just need to recover.
Recover.

[Deah/阿优] SeDi: Progress Check 2

Some (forgotten) discoveries.

独立与个人主义应该是不同的。
也许心底最深处需要的，是一个扶持。
这辅助的能力，不一定全然是一种依靠，不一定是所谓的懦弱。
需要辅助，因为那个体不完整。
如果我说，他是适合填补那一个空缺的他
个体是否就完整了。

也许已不需要自我平衡——两个极端。
作用力和反作用力，牛顿第三运动定律(Newton's Third Law of Motion)。
“For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction.”
两个人的相处，莫过于如此。Forces always come in pairs. 一正一负相同大小的力量，就是达到平衡的条件。

信仰，莫过于是坚定不渝的相信，且是相信自己。
一颗冰冷的心，仍无时会被偶然唤起被隐藏的感动。

李家同老师为11楼（Han, Sang-bok著）写的序，大意是这样的：
“爱与希望同在。”
“忙碌是为了有更好的明天，但是为什么很多人还是不快乐。”
“人每次在追求人生的意义，但为何舍近求远； 其实爱就在身旁，看看身边的亲人，爱人及朋友，想想曾经让你感动的事。”


Progress check 2 of SeDi

1. Damage reduction and path-smoothing process. - 20% (1st check) > 65%
   
2. Development and advancement. - 30% (1st check) > 70%
   
3. Fresh and peaceful. - 80% (1st check) > 80%
   
4. Joy and God. - 60% (1st check) > 85%
   
5. Orderly. - 10% (1st check) > 15%
   
6. Fire-lilied. - 50% (1st check) > 65%
   

1. Somehow the time helped me to go through this process. Still can be improved. And also there is some kind of sequela after that too.
2. Yeah. And I was reassured about this.
3. Feeling better. But tired. Ups and downs in this part.
4. Never accept blindly. I know what I need.
5. Need to work harder.
6. The flower's evolving. Hope it will be stronger and more charming.

[Deah/阿优] SeDi: Progress Check 1

End of March. Today, the beginning of May.

Let me do some (random) progress check of SeDi.

1. Damage reduction and path-smoothing process. - 20%
2. Development and advancement. - 30%
   
3. Fresh and peaceful. - 80%
   
4. Joy and God. - 60%
   
5. Orderly. - 10%
   
6. Fire-lilied. - 50%
   

1. Some paths has been smoothen, but there is something there that couldn't be reduced.
2. Have some advancement in other matters I think.
3. Feeling them most of the time.
4. Same as above.
5. There is some kind of order, but not the order that I planned to have.
6. Installation complete. Initializing stage.

Have never felt so desperate for joy and fun and solitude.
Can't wait for the arrival of My Original September.

(And I had a happy Labour Day.)

[Deah/阿优] SeDi: My Original September

Of SeDi (Self Discovery) Project.

Objective: My Original September.
To be more precise, the title would be My Original Mid-September.

my (adj.)
The possessive form of I, used as a modifier before a noun.

o·rig·i·nal (adj.)
a. Not derived from something else; fresh and unusual.
b. Showing a marked departure from previous practice; new.

Sep·tem·ber (n.)
The ninth month of the year in the Gregorian calendar, the month following August and preceding October.

Descriptions:

1. Damage reduction and path-smoothing process.
   
2. Development and advancement.
3. Fresh and peaceful.
   
4. Joy and God.
   
5. Orderly.
6. Fire-lilied.

Starting from end of March until mid September. I'll see if this work.
I am smiling.

[Rahet/阿丑] 拾遗

Perhaps it's one of the first steps of SeDi project (which is initiated by Deah), so I added a SeDi label too.

Click on the image for a clearer view of this step contributed by Rahet.



There is still a lonngg way till My Original September.
Hmm. Distant.

Anyway, I like Fire Lilies (火百合).

[Deah/阿优] Introduction to Self-Discovery (SeDi)

Something made me happy today.
(I believed that caffeine had a certain effect on this too.)

Problem 1:

Things go really wrong when you mess with your Windows system files, and having worms and viruses in your system. What to do?

Solution 1:

1. Identify the errors and the corrupted files.
2. Clean the viruses or broken files, get the appropriate system files (compatible with the OS you're using) back.
3. If it still doesn't work, try formatting your computer/hard disk drives.
4. Then get a good anti-virus software; do not carelessly open any unknown applications, and back-up your files before modifying or replacing it.

Problem 2:

I'm corrupted.

Solution 2:

1. I tried to look for the broken files, and the cause of having it corrupted.
2. I tried many ways to clean it, but it didn't really work out.
3. I couldn't just shut myself off and reformat myself, I have nowhere to move my data (I've got only one hard disk drive, no partitions).
4. Lastly, I figured out something. I think I know my own operating system better already.
5. I need an on-going project to keep everything running smoothly, and in my way.

6. I named this project Self-Discovery Project, SeDi in short.