Never like the idea of piling up tasks, because I never know how to complete them by focusing one at the time. Because I see all the things I have as one. Somehow this weakness of mine always reminds me of him. It is not that I'm unaware of this, but sometimes this is what differentiates me from you. This is how you made your decisions until today and this is how I walk my paths until now.
My life has once drastically switched to a messy routine since 4 years ago. During the years, perhaps I was too bloated, perhaps I wasn't aware of my own needs, perhaps Ｉ thought things will always be better if it was done alone, perhaps many perhaps, I keep losing my own battles and setting new records for my own failures.
I couldn't get out of my own trap.
Being selfless doesn't necessarily has to be neglecting own needs. Putting own needs as the first priority doesn't necessarily means being selfish. What are needs?
A friend of mine reminded me that people suffer because they couldn't fulfill their needs. I have referred to
this site to learn more about 'needs'.
Had once I completely lost faith to the term 'friends' or 'companions'. Perhaps the effects were still on me for quite a long time. It always ends up in disappointment when I have placed trust onto someone. But perhaps if I keep on trusting them, miracles might happen. Trust is crucial and good companions are treasures.
Thank you all my friends for staying by my side, although I'm not good in keeping close contact with people. Thank you for keeping me sane.
Of course I need to thank
you for walking into my life again.
Thank God for everything that I've gone through, brought important people into my life, and never giving up on me.
