Never like the idea of piling up tasks, because I never know how to complete them by focusing one at the time. Because I see all the things I have as one. Somehow this weakness of mine always reminds me of him. It is not that I'm unaware of this, but sometimes this is what differentiates me from you. This is how you made your decisions until today and this is how I walk my paths until now.
My life has once drastically switched to a messy routine since 4 years ago. During the years, perhaps I was too bloated, perhaps I wasn't aware of my own needs, perhaps Ｉ thought things will always be better if it was done alone, perhaps many perhaps, I keep losing my own battles and setting new records for my own failures.
I couldn't get out of my own trap.
Being selfless doesn't necessarily has to be neglecting own needs. Putting own needs as the first priority doesn't necessarily means being selfish. What are needs? A friend of mine reminded me that people suffer because they couldn't fulfill their needs. I have referred to this site to learn more about 'needs'.
Had once I completely lost faith to the term 'friends' or 'companions'. Perhaps the effects were still on me for quite a long time. It always ends up in disappointment when I have placed trust onto someone. But perhaps if I keep on trusting them, miracles might happen. Trust is crucial and good companions are treasures.
Thank you all my friends for staying by my side, although I'm not good in keeping close contact with people. Thank you for keeping me sane.
Of course I need to thank you for walking into my life again.
Thank God for everything that I've gone through, brought important people into my life, and never giving up on me.
7 comments:
Froggie said...
Positivity. Sometimes, we hardly to trace how our lives are gonna be, what is the things tat require us to do for. What we all doing now, is to 'survive'. Survive from un'needed' threats to fulfill what we needed as basic.
A sentence catch my eye, "Trust is crucial and good companions are treasures." I like the phrase and somehow situation doesn't really allow this thinking being last long. The world is facing crisis? Society being darken? Ppl changed in order to survive.
Juz my 2 cent.
20/6/07 12:53 AM
i e R: people has great expectation, so does you, thus making it hard to have a equal understanding in life. everyone has different of 2 cents... but always look at the Bigger picture to see it whole
20/6/07 2:41 PM
To froggie:
But if one sticks to think that way will make life miserable. At least a beautiful thought once in a while makes the world beautiful, even for just a minute. It's time for me to stop pursuing the negative force. May the (positive) force be with you.
To i e R:
Am always trying to see the whole picture. Thanks.
20/6/07 2:49 PM
froggie said...
Like u said, u see thing as whole. It's truly a positive thinking and view matter generally but we muz also learn focus and concentrate in terrible crisis time. ^_^ it's kind of a skill which related to many factors like, emotion, people around, timing and situation.
Fundamentally, Positive force is alwaiz be with us inside the heart but 'Negative' force due to environment come in and indirectly 'cover' our positive force. ^_^
Cheerings!
Juz my 3 cent.
20/6/07 5:31 PM
Inability to focus is actually one of the effects which is caused by the environment, due to the high speed of information flow, for example the new technologies, the internet etc.
Which is why sometimes we are supposed to keep something within ourselves, instead of changing every bit of us according to the environment.
21/6/07 7:42 PM
ieR said...
huh? i thought the 'ability to adapt' is one of the human most powerful strength?
btw, i'm not really clear 'bout your life-journey, b'coz i dont read the chinese blog parts :( but i have quite a number of point and coins to spare.
people did not suffer because thier couldn't fulfill thier Needs, i believe they 'choose', to Scarifices to fulfill a Destiny.
actually, there is not positive nor negative force over then other, my cents told me that, every flow of energy will always return to neutral, heavier on iether side causes unbalance. so instead of having unbalance energy, get this
"to see a new scenery, is not to change the scenery, but to see the scenery from a different angle"
(or you can substitute the scenery with 'big picture', too see a new Big picture, dont change the Big picture, coz u cant change it, but instead, look at the picture again, from a different angle)
instead of keep trying so hard to get 'focus' to see from the point you are standing, trying moving around and see it again, you may even find your 'focus' there.
may the force be with you. -jedi ieR XD
22/6/07 2:41 PM
Thanks ieR. :) It's just a matter of perspective anyway.
24/6/07 6:39 PM
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